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when life lead me to a corner that i feel like giving up.just so lost..nth belong to me..nth need me..when he's gone tt day..is just like my end of day..a storm that never end..even teddy bear dun belong to me..wadelse can do for him..everyguy i see is bull shit.. when i always didnt manage to treasure when love came..and now..eddy is gone..left i 1 person..looking at the world that i dont belong to..can i give up?justt give up..having real deep depression..when he give me such a big bomb..lying in the coffin..his cold body..controlling my madness..but i noe im gone deep down... down down down....down
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:35 PM
ahbao,shida,sunshine all gone..they leave cdm~!!and ah bao called me yesterdae..say he got throw into the pool and he got injure..deep deep cut at the elbow there..WTF~!and he say he went hospital himself and 3 stitches..very pain ehh??oh god..poor ah bao..anywhere i got him something that he will love..hahas..i got my gd gd fren a funny stuff..so cute..hmm..i really miss u all so much le lah..now..no more happening lurr..hais..and tt stupid uncle xander yesterday make me so angry..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
11:46 PM
yeterday work so bored..but..kenath daddy come to me and fed me eat french fries..so sweet right..XD!! & denn mich oso pass me food..denn cicilia oso giib miie gingerbreadman..=.= 1 shot so many ppl giib miie food ehh..gdd gdd..ii yestday so hungry..denn..sue brought curry puff for me..o.O!food day!XD! but the day b4 was a terrible day.. before horrible things happen always so silent so fun so sweet..justt like wadd i write in cashoer coms book.. no one can comfirm life will be a sky full of rainbow or a sky full with dark clouds and storm..yesterdayy miie andd teddy..so funnyy..XD!he justt brought happiness to miie..even he dun notiice..he did..justt derr wayy he iish.. the power of LOVE! -.-"
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
12:24 AM
is like a dream when everything justt happen.. 17/11/08; eddy and my mei mei..my loves their 49th days and i went to se eddy..sorry doggy..i cried again..infront of you..i tried to console your mummy..but i cried with her once again..i just cant control..i miss you so much..the time once i reach i kneel down on the floor wipe your photo with my hand..im going nuts..how i wish everything is just a dream..when i wake up; you are still beside me..how i wish im in a coma..and u are still alive..where is the hug hug u used to say?when u have all the cream on u..i miss when you call"PING!" whatever i do now..remind me of you.everywhere has our memory..r u sure the guy is the right man??not the guy in my mind?confused..lol..hows life there??must wait for us all go down..like wad we said before..must wait...at least for me..
with love..ur king kong..kerina cherriish..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:54 PM
my love dun cry..eddy effendy..where is the love we saidwhen my heart bleed you amend..when i thought we will be together but you're gonethe warming hugsthe happiness smilesin return of your coldly hurtwhen i'm suppose to be theresoftly heard you saydon't cry my lovelike what you always saidmy tears can never be removedwhy did'nt you wait for mei know you long for meno one can understandwe're in love so much..but we're too close to say i love youhis last word i ever remember is'who become your boyfren that guy sure xin fu"eddy we set a date to leave together..i cant find another like how you treat me..i gave up waiting for my prince..cause kiss wont wake you up anymore..my time stopped at when i see your cold body lying in the coffin i've lost eveything....bcos i lost you..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
1:35 AM
after so many thing happened..the new boy nv moved my heart..he justt seem like a passer-by in my heart..it seem like the same old man still moving in my heart..but the way im waiting for him..is simply fuck up..i love wadeva he loves..he loves everything i loves..we share the same freaking attidute..thats why till now nth came out of our mouth..cos i scare of losing frenship...love??i dun have the choice anymore..he justted" ont and only..the JUSTTED" created for him so that no one will noe who is him..only some lah..me and my new boyy ...i really duno...just let everything silent down..i'll go back to that "always there..o.o this must say name big big..ADRIAN LEE~!ate the pocky i gave mich and yati to eat.. -_-"well he seriously love me so much..love me till all food related to me he must eat it up..adrian too much love not good...love=food... an astro pig..XDdun need to go on diet la..right mich??he fat fat one then is astro mah~!=X
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:02 PM
justt feel low suddenly..cos today saw something so hais.im just too stupid..like wad adrian said..im silly..thanks ar adrain lee~and you burst the cotton candy that ah bao brought for me~!!!T_T!!!!and its like snow spread all around..T_T~!!you ate it..best..you misplaced it~!and duno who take go it~!T_T~!ah bao~!!!!!!adrian lee bully me~!!though he say will buy for me again~~but afterall he still bully me~!still want take cotton candy stick on my leg~!T_T~~~~~~~~!today brought a bear and a old school blanket total 83 bucks ..well worth lah..cos for charity...XD i dun mind helping those in needs...=) i duno wad to do then i will be happy..sunddenly thought of that time adrian say..if you will be happy anything also can..lols..happy???i duno lei..hais.......this my life bahh..can VIP make me see a good guy view??well this VIP is my very very silent secret..well secret are meant to hide wad..but please i seriously hate liars..just leave me alone like wad a liar is doing now....mayb i'll be better... end of story...last but not least..ARDRIAN LEE OWN ME COTTON CANDY!well he's a gd man where by i everytime sad or bored he'll make me smile or laugh at him~!XD
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:58 AM
