that day im so pissed off.. he confused me with his words.i cried like no one else business.i see another him, he stil care for me this friend.thats a good one that i cried again.. too touching.=) now.. me and that him slowly we are alright.. my mind keep flash back.. that day he told me not to angry. everytime i saw him. i cant control but i felt so mixed. boy im not angry you should noe. im just disappointed.the way you treat me is not wad i truely want it to be.its not the way.how can i make you feel my heart.how can i make you say you do.like the way you say no matter wad i want oso can i happy ju hao.can love be as simple if its a secret. i know u said.. simple complicated. yup.. think so.but im so happy when we are back to the square ones..i just want you to smile.when you smile cos of me im happy than anyone. someone cheat your feeling last time. i know you're hurt..if you dont dare to have faith on anyone anymore.. i can let you trust on.dont treat me like a puppet on the street..i can promise nothing but one.no one can ever love you as much as i do.that i believe.but to me.. everything is nth.towards you i have no confident at all.ridiculous.. i hate you seriously i hate you..but it will never more than i love you.
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i got myself a new friend.a gd friend.eddy.. you know?i hope you saw everything that happen to me.thats no way i can talk to you. so i type here hope you will see if you are by myside.his name is wen long..my gd gd fren.he treat me good.. but afterall.. he's still him..not you.im back with xiao long..but he's not that xiao long i used to know.anyway he's back.hoor.. nowaday.. i still feel so stress.. i never let myself destress.. i duno how to let my mind go..if you're here.. will it be different? i never let myself rest since you went away.where is the dreams? i miss you so much..those dreams .. doggy its not enough for me to stop crying.i tried to blame others for your death but i cant do it.end up i blaming myself.doggy.. is my new friend a gd friend?after you left me alone.. im totally alone.. i uesd to be alone till im scare to be go with crowds..the more ppl the more i feel lonely.but i still need ti smile..when i cant.only him who can make me smile but he not here.he's alright with or without me. like no different.. T_T.. or like wen long said the.. im too sensitive? maybe..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
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