"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
5:49 AM
5:49 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009
im back!
IT BEEN SO LONG SINCE I BLOG AGAIN.. YUP,LIFE HAVE BEEN SO BUSY FOR ME. AND THATS SO MUCH THINGS IN MY MIND NOW. LIKE GIVING HIM UP AFTER LIKE 1 YR PLUS?LIKE ANOTHER STUPID THING I VE DONE AGAIN.THATS WHY HE SAID IM SILLY.WELL.. THINGS HAVE CHANGED I GUESS..WE JUST NOT THE SAME ANYMORE.WORSE!!MY BIRTHDAY MY BIRTHDAY! NOT EVEN A WORD FROM HIM.IS NOT THAT I DIDNT INVITE, IS HE IGNORED.BUT THIS IS NOT THAT WORSE OUT OF MY LIFE THAT MAKE ME GONE MAD EH.. IS THAT SLUT THAT I USED TO RESPECT..BUT NOT NOW!NOW TO ME SHE S JUST A SLUT THAT I NEED TO ACT THAT IM STIL ALRIGHT WITH HER BUT HATE HER TO THE CORE BEHIND..WELL I GUESS IM SUCH A BITCH BUT SHE S DRIVING ME CRAZY! KNOW WHAT?!SHE KNOW I LOVE HIM,BUT SHE KEEP ON TELLING ME SHE CALL TO WAKE HIM UP, SHE BUY BREAKFAST FOR HIM, HE TREAT HER EAT LUNCH WITH OTHERS,TOOK HIS STUFF FOR HIM,SAY HOW MUCH SHE KNOW ABOUT HIM N ETC... INFRONT OF ME!!!!!!!WHEN EVERYONE KNOW THAT HOW IMPORTANT HE IS TO ME!! HE JUST LIKE A PRECIOUS TO ME,, I HANDLE HIM WITH CARE , SCARE TO HURT HIM, LIKE HE S GONNA BE BROKEN ANYTIMES.DISAPOINTMENT... SO I JUST WANT TO LEAVE THIS FREAKING PLACE QUIETLY,SHEDING MY TEARS AFTER I TURN AROUND.I GUESS I LEAD A LIFE LIKE MERMAID..BUT I DONT FEEL GREAT OF MYSELF.. I FEELS STUPID BUT I CANT HELP IT, WHO CAN CONTROL FEELINGS? TEACH ME PLEASE?=( ANOTHER THING.. MY STUDIES.. WELL.. I HAVE A MUM THAT KEEP ASKING ME WHEN SIGN UP.. BUT I HAVE A BROTHER THAT HALF SUPPORTIVE BUT HALF POURING WATER ON ME.. AND THAT IS ICE WATER I GUESS~! I MEAN I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU! COS I WANT TO CLIMB HIGHER THAN PPL THAT DUN BELIEVE I CAN DO SO .SO .. I LL MAKE SURE THEM SUFFER UNDER ME. AND I SHALL LOOK DOWN ON THEM, TO LET THEM FEEL HOW PPL OUT THERE IS FEELING WHEN THEY DO SO TOO. TELLING THEM NOT TO BE SO PROUD OF YOURSELF, YOU WILL NEVER KNOW.I JUST DUNO WHY.. THATS SO MUCH THINGS IN MY HEAD.. SPINNING.. WORKING IS SUCH A PAIN TO ME NOW, I DUN FEEL LIKE IT ANYMORE.TIRED TIRED TIRED. TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE,I LL FIGHT.BUT NOT IN CDM ANYMORE. NO WAY!! HAIS... WHAT I WANT?? I HATE MYSELF IN SOME WAYS EH,, RIGHT.. AH BAL SAID POST GOOD THINGS?? BUT I DONT SEEM I GOT THE MOOD TO WRITE ANY EH..WAITING FOR PAY TO BE IN.. SO SHOPPING N HOUSE ETC.. IM COMING! WOOS..... THATS WILL MAKE ME FEELS BETTER =)
